The Lonely Dreamer

My time at Palghar has finally come to an end. Its hard to believe it myself,as its something i have yet to swallow. My life in Palghar  has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride. Up's and Down's, turns and bumps at every corner. There were these days where I felt like I'm wasting my entire life away. When I get out of bed and I didn't feel like I did sleep at all. Yet everything was a lesson to be learnt. Every dark cloud has a silver lining, and there is good after everything bad. When i joined there, i was an immature teen, yet to ever be out of my comfort zone. Today i can say, that I'm a completely different person. And as much as i hate Palghar, i cannot deny the fact that it was also the most learning experience in my life so far. I have lot of memories attached there. Good ones and bad. I met some awesome people who changed my life forever, good friends that were there for me all the time and for that I will always be indebted. What were the most im...

Image Drawings by- Solar-citrus You would be surprised with how many people in your life could be going through depression at this very moment.  People hide it like a paper bag over their heads out of fear of being judged, made fun of, seen as weak, or just not taken seriously.  Depression should not be taken lightly, it holds us down from our purpose and potential in life.  Those who tell you that it doesn’t exist have never experienced depression in their life, therefore not understanding the symptoms and how it’s something that cannot be fixed in a day!  From my experience, depression arises from the gap between truth and perceived/wishful truth. When things don't look the way you expect or want it to, you feel helpless and when you feel helpless, you give up, fade away, despair. Your feelings are real, your feelings are shared upon millions. Don’t hide it, talk to someone about it. With the right help, you can rediscover you...

I wish life to be as simple as words, Just like a sky full of birds.  I wish every one could follow their heart, And make their life happy and smart.  I believe good things comes to those who wait,  And trust me it will be the best you get.  So fly high with invisible wings,  And enjoy life's unexpected swings --Pooja Naik

Finally I'm up and kickin with my own video blog posts. College has ended, the AMP crew no longer exists. That's an end to the brilliant Amal Baiju magic that was always a part of this blog. here's wishing him all the luck and success for his future endeavors. However if by chance he does come up with a new one, it will feature here for sure. On a brighter side, i have got 2 lovely movie maker software's at my disposal. I may not have have the creative genius of Mr Baiju, but learning is always the part of the trade. Now to actually wonder how far this fad will go. The first movie that i had made was back in diploma days, about a fight in my class. Lol. I had uploaded it on youtube , although i had to take it down later due to the violent and vulgar abuse content in it. So here is for a new beginning. And new video memories for the trips i undertake or all the memories worth reliving. The first and foremost, the most memorable trip of my life. It was undertaken the...

I usually don't post such stuff on my blog but this one has to be an exception here. I somehow someway had to get this story out. It's been on my mind for many days now and I really didn't know how to frame it while talking about it with my friends. It happened on 15th Feb 2014, a day after valentines day.I was sitting at McDonalds when the following event unfolded. Scene : McDonald's, balcony. Four girls sitting right beside me on the opposite table. Arguing about this guy who likes one of them. Me and a friend gorging on our French fries. Girl 1 : Shit I can't believe he likes me! How can he even think I like him back?! That nuthead. Girl 2 : See I told you stay away from him. No guy is good. Girl 3 : They all just want one thing. And we know what. Girl 4 : But how did he just like you all of a sudden! And how did he think you like him?! Weirdo Girl 1 : (At the top of her damned voice!) All I did was go out with him a few times cause he asked me. I used to...

It was the 12 th of May, I had just finished my exams a day before, and here I was sitting nervously for my life’s first interview. The waiting room was a library, where books and reports of various issues were kept, after filling up the form; I went through a few books with eager thirst for knowledge. It wasn’t long before it was my turn. With a deep breadth, I walk in. I had no past experience, what I only had was knowledge and the confidence in my ability.. Fundraising is a tough job. It’s something that tests your skills to the fullest. It also helps you grow as an individual. I happen to work in an NGO. One that works for environment related issues particularly climate change. I was a part of a select group of 5 people, each with their own set of talents, skills and vision.   The first week of job was all about learning the trade. Realizing the purpose of me being here, realizing the purpose of why we exist. Knowing the campaigns, the causes that we work for. How we a...

Well by now you must have noticed how active I am on social networking websites. My profiles are available for you to see, unfortunately I cannot add everyone on my facebook profile. Since a lot of you are quite unknown to me. You can follow me on Twitter - @Ervine11 Or me on instagram - @lester25 However if you do want to communicate with me on a chat basis,  then BBM is the best option I can think of. Go ahead #BBMme PIN: 743CF8A9  www.pin.bbm.com/743CF8A9

It was a heavenly feeling. I experienced what it felt like being in the promised land. The night was still young, and the party was not yet over. Chants of Super Bayern filled the air. We were going wild with celebrations. We were champions, Champions of Europe. I still remember that dreadful night a year ago. My world had come crashing down. But the class of 2013 knows how to kick back. And back with style they did. I continued to be the same pessimist I was, day in and day out. No matter which team we played I never kept hope. One by one we kept moving forward. The team was hell bent on redemption. There were a few new faces. Change makers. There was something in this squad that no Bayern team of the past ever had. There was strength in depth. Even our reserves were good enough to play a starting role in any other team. We were on a rampage on every front. The Bundesliga seemed a done deal 2 months before the end. Records kept breaking on weekly basis. Teams kept getting battered o...

I have been to this place before. I can't put an exact number on how many times though. I take a long look at it. Never seen it like this before. We all were here a few years back and the year before those too, pretty much enjoying the "life" that we knew back then. I try hard to remember when was the last time we all came here. All of us. No matter how hard i try, i cannot remember. It seems like aeons have passed since i last saw this place. Ultimately giving up, i try hard and walk around a bit. I have a weird urge of going upstairs and meet those who may still be there but on a second thought i don't. Though i don't have the luxury of time but i still walk around a bit. Finish a complete round. Get a feel of it- AGAIN!! The sky above me is pink and crimson red in patches. It will turn black in a jiffy!! I walk around a bit. I observe the place with a completely new perspective. I realize the landscape has changed now- how this fact somehow escaped my attention...

By Joel Mozhumannil This world, if u start talking about it, you will never end with your complaints and cry because such cruel, brutal and atrocious this world is. Every single person is interested about his or hers own motives and benefits. No one cares about anyone anymore. People have become selfish and ruthless trying to suck your blood everytime they get an opportunity. No one cares about anyone and all are running to just satisfy their own desires and wants without even thinking about what the other person might feel by his rude actions and behaviour. First time in my life i am trying my hand at writing an article. Not just because others are writing i am inspired by them,but i have reached a point in my life where the frustration, the agony,the anguish has overpowered me to drive me into this unexpecting state of distress. This world,if u start talking about it,you will never end with your complaints and cry because such cruel, brutal and atrocious this world is. Every single...

Have you heard of sumthing very noisy and attractive, cheerfull and full of laughter outside but. . . . . Yet silent, locked, damaged and shattered but yet significant from within inside? If Not, then take a trip into my Heart and find out the real definition of sadness, heartbreak, how miserable it could feel, uncertainities of life and hopelessness. This sure, is most of  the individuals life in todays world. A Big screen of the cheerful world on the outer side while being the quietest of all in the corner of the  world in my own heart. Those broken pieces of missing someone ,sumthings of life that meant too much to us  but got nothing back. Life reaches a standstill in total darkness. Wonder how this darkness will ever reach the sunlight of future happiness. Its like you cannot see the light even when its there ; For the darkness that surrounds us is so thick that its suppressin all rays of hope and belief, trust , honesty and loyalty. The past that has taken a hard o...

I'd been planning this trip for a long time now. Finally decided to fullfill it with my college group. After dealing with a lot of troubles finally decided to leave for the trip on 14th June. Due to girls being with us, had to limit the trip to a day stay only. We were 10 of us for the trip. 6 boys and 4 girls. The whole trip was planned according to train timings based on the Android app 'M-indicator'. As one of our team mate was arriving on the same day to Mumbai from another one of her trip, had to adjust the time accordingly to leave a bit late. So the day had finally arrived. Me and my class mates met at Borivli station at 8.15 am. The 10 of us than caught the 8.36am Borivali-ChurchGate fast. The train was crowded as usual being peak time. We reached Dadar station by 920am. The trains to Neral arrive on platform number 4 on the Central Railway side. These trains are Karjat bound locals and there is only one train arriving every hour so the trip mainly was based on...

Im back. Finally I'm back. And not just back. I'm here to stay. Been a long time for me . I know. Life's been busy. Very very busy. I usually used to manage atleast one post a month, but its been months since I've managed that too. Alot has happened recently. The most important of all is that I've learnt to carry on with life. Accepted facts and moved on from my toughest time. Made new friends, made up with the lost, sorted relationships, met someone special, had wonderful moments and most importantly, grown up in maturity where attachments are concerned. It's true what my friend once told me, ''You may cry for somethings others find unreasonable today, tomorrow thinking back you will be the one laughing at it''. When you think of the happy moments or memories that made you smile at one time, you will cry realizing or missing those moments. When you look back at the reasons that made you cry, you will think to your self that you were too stupi...

  Aren't friends a necessity in life? Assume yourself without any true and sincere friend. How would you feel at places like Mc Donald's or a Pizza hut? What would you do with your cell ?? What about parties or hangouts ?? Think about events like your birthday or any reason worth celebrating. Who'll ask you about your worries. .?? Who's gonna tell you about their mood swings ?? Who'll tease you pairing with others? Who'll care, miss & irritate you? These are sum out of many reasons why life wouldn't have been a lovable mess. The connection you feel goes beyond any words of description. A bond that makes it feel a divine intervention. But what if you had to always live with this fear, that the people you loved the most, cared the most, the friends who really matter to you are at one point of time going to leave you? Your best friend from school, is not going to be your best friend in college and your best friend from your college life isn't going...

I downloaded a software from the Android market which allows you to perform the same tasks as Adobe does for you on the PC. The name is 'Colour Touch', and would suggest it as a must download for picture editing freaks

We shared our joys and sorrows We'd laugh and sometimes cry Does pain lie in our tomorrows? Was our friendship just a lie? You used to give me the sunshine Your smile brightened my day Now I find you don't have the time, So why do I bother to stay? My tears are like raindrops We shouldn't have to cry anymore Somewhere the crying stops, If happy days were here like before. Your dreams seem too important Than having me around You want me to always smile, And wear the fake face of a clown. I cherished the beautiful times we had And the dreams we once did share You gave them all up and I got sad- To think you now don't care. How can you say you need me, When each day you are saying good-bye? You don't realize, but I know it, So why do you bother to lie? I held on so tight; I smothered you with my tears. But I found out the other night, I'm wasting a lot of years. You know I still love you; The love of a friend never dies. I can...

Part 1- Before it Ended PEOPLE COMPLICATE THINGS TOO MUCH.. You miss some one? Call. Wana meet? Invite. Wana be understood? Explain yourself. Like someone?tell him/her Have questions ? Ask. Don't like it ? Say it. Like it? State it. Want something? Ask in the best possible way to get a yes. If you already have a "no",take the risk of getting a "yes". We have just one life.Let's be simple and happy !!! (Dealing with complications of having friends who are not so open as you are) Sometimes you make me so mad that I want to throw you in the middle of on-going cars. But then I realize, I would probably kill myself just to save you (Dealing with the multiple amount of mood swings) Once you feel you are avoided by someone, never disturb them again. B'coz the one who thinks, you are disturbing them will never know how much you care for them. ( Something i should have done long ago, but i still saw hope and tried to keep the friendship i...

Some of Amal Baiju's self created photoshop images Rishabh Singh Anette Dcunha Thats Me Kevin Crasto Binnie Thomas Mount Mary (Bandra) And here is my creation on photoshop. All the new Bayern signings for season 2011-12

No no, its not the marriage ones i am talking about. Today i spent a day on the now expired website orkut. Was going through my old scraps as nostalgia moments filled my head. Anyways one feature that Orkut has that facebook doesn't is that of the testimonials, where you can write about what you think of a certain friend. Dont know what to post about and as the blog has become quite inactive lately ,so decided to share some I received on my old home website Orkut. Varun Lester is one of my oldest & most trustworthy friends....he was also in my class...we shared a lot of gr8 moments together....he was one d coolest guy d class.....hope v still b frnds forever...... Conroy Lester is a gr8 friend & a fantastic companion i know him since we began our schooling days..... hes trustworthy & smart as well.... i hope tht he continues to be as he is, simple and kind throught his life......all the best......buddy.. Akshata i know Lester frm a year.....he eats, drinks...

Oh vacations finally!! oh wait, aren't I on it for a year now? *sigh*. Its been a long time since i wrote a blogpost on my personal life so probably writing this one. Firstly nothing new in my life but however if you've been wondering where i was for the past 2 months, then its plain and simple. God damn Exams!!. The one fucked up thing about engineering is that the bloody exams last for over a month. Sometimes so much gap that its like a mini vacation, and students like me are just not able to study until we realize that we have just a day left for the next paper.Procrastination.  So what exactly happened in between?. First let me tell you a good news. In my quest of doing something creative in my boredom , i ended up submitting two articles for a sports website called sportskeeda (i know it sounds weird). My statistics for the two articles are currently at 922 article reads and 149 FB Likes.. Not bad eh? plus those statistics were only from the sportskeeda website, if ...